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Post by Deleted on Feb 9, 2021 17:05:28 GMT
She had a lot to get off of her mind but it never seemed to come so she had went home and did some deep thinking but not deep enough to be considered soul searching. She did not know why because everything in her life at that moment was good but still she felt unbalanced and it almost felt like everything was out of that around her, that in her own way she was out of stasis and that did not sit too well with her. She knew that being here was bad but it was..time? She did not even know if time was the correct word to use but she knew at the moment it was what she wanted to use and so she had thought about asking Micah to come but then she had decided that it would be best to send Mila to Micah for that was how this story played best it was how this story stayed balanced. Sadly it meant that her trip home meant that she was going with Trove. She did not know how she felt about that she only knew that it was, it had to happen and that was okay. They were friends? Acquaintances but at the end of the day they had to spend this time together to get to the center of both of their stories and she had been avoiding it but it was finally time to shuffle it in."Hurry up, the sooner that we get this done the sooner we can get back and I know you know how I hate being here." Seriously coming home was the worse idea but roots, roots were calling her name. Cae Mire
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Feb 10, 2021 16:19:57 GMT
Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2021 16:19:57 GMT
She was more than a little surprised that she was actually doing something with Ribbon mostly because it felt like it had at least been a year or a little longer since the two had talked and now they were back at an old house. She was not completely freaked out but she was taking her time about doing anything. "I'm going as fast as I can considering we are not staying. I am not made for turn around trips." She was not even sure that was what they were called but she knew by the time that she got back she would be tired and sometimes much like she did you had to know and admit what your limits were and were not. "I will take the upstairs room and if anything triggers me I will come down and get you." She did not have any real idea that anything here would act as a trigger to her but she also knew that it was not anything that anyone could tell simply by looking at stuff and she was secretly glad that Ribbon did not seem to talk as much as Micah which while good also made her wonder why. "You know it's not against the law to talk more right and I doubt that you hate it all. I think that as you stand here if you stay too long then memories will come and you don't like those but hate seems like a bit too strong of a word at the moment." Ribbon Harmony
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Feb 14, 2021 14:16:19 GMT
Post by Deleted on Feb 14, 2021 14:16:19 GMT
Ribbon was..not like others and she knew that no two people were the same but she had never been like others..not even growing up. She remembered it all too well as she looked at Trove for she had nothing to hide, neither one of them did. "Why talk about it? Can't change your past so just do your present and whatever it is that the future brings to you simply accept it and do the best that you can," she said as she walked and then up the steps and opened the door. "It's why I brought you Trove, got to be more careful about what I say and what I do or you might start flipping out and I do not want that but I did not want to go by myself and well bringing Mila would have been absolutely jarring for me so you won." It was nothing that anyone needed to dig into but if she wanted to they could. "You on the other hand," she said as she finally pushed the door open. "Have just as much memory here as me do you not?" She took a second to wipe her feet and then walked in. "Maybe it's not me who needs a memory check but you but neither one of us should be scared of what happened in the past if anything we sould embrace it and use it now because while we do not need it, even I have to admit that it's nice to think about the more simple times. You do not realize it when you are a kid but when you have absolutely no worry in the world are some of the best times but that's the problem with us even now even as children we never had a chance not to worry and I'm sure that if you think about it hard enoug you'll agree with me." Cae Mire
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Feb 22, 2021 17:27:47 GMT
Post by Deleted on Feb 22, 2021 17:27:47 GMT
"Well you are correct but it does not need to be anything that you crutch on either. You think that others do not see the anger that you harbor when it comes to your mother and father?" That was the key she felt. "The only difference is that your father does not get to see it because he's dead and when he died so did a big part of you and you avoid your mother well like she is a plague and thus you are not really dealing with anything just going on with your life as it is now which is not always good so with that being said, maybe you should address your past." She knew that she personally was better because of it except when the memories became too much and maybe that was the reason all in itself. "I do have memories here but most of mine are ways of sneaking in to see your brother and things like that which we promised not to discuss right?" She was trying to make sure that she understood as she walked in and looked around. It was easy to tell no one had been here in at least a few years. "That's odd to hear your mom tell it people are supposed to be coming here in order to keep it from looking like well a dusty old storm waiting to happen but that obviously is not the case." Ribbon Harmony
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Mar 19, 2021 18:16:05 GMT
Post by Deleted on Mar 19, 2021 18:16:05 GMT
She knew the whole point was to remain calm and she wanted that more than anything so she simply shrugged because at that particular second the words escaped her though that was not going to be something that happened for long. "I mean every story told from someone else's point of view will always be different. We all have eyes but just as the colors and shades are different so are the view points so what she sees when she knows I am leaving and what she wants me to accomplish is not necessarily a truth or a lie, it's just a view point and even after it is revealed in no way makes her a liar it just did not play out right." That was the easiest way that she had to explain it. "Only if I were to make promises and did not stick to them and then she went back and told the story and lied about the events and the outcomes, only then in my head would it be a lie but at the moment nothing is a lie because nothing has been said that is current to now, that makes sense right?" She did not know if she was making much sense but to her it made perfect sense and that was what she was focusing on. "A bit like your memories no? Your relationship runs deep with Micah and yet neither of you pushes it, but it does not make the existence of undefined relationship a lie does it?" Cae Mire
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Mar 26, 2021 18:01:08 GMT
Post by Deleted on Mar 26, 2021 18:01:08 GMT
She slightly looked at her. "Well deep is subjective right? What is deep to us is not necessarily deep to someone else but to me, from my side it is deep but you know Micah. He well it seemed that he always had different attachments and so what runs deep for me is not the same for him that would be closer to you. Twins always have that thing as I pointed out to him where one tries to outdo the other and hey memories are just there." She looked around. "I have a lot of memories here but none as deep as yours and yet as much as it seems like we stay fighting this here we are. I always knew that eventually we would have to meet and that eventually we would have to talk but here I never imagined that." She did not have an issue here she did not think but she did want to unspool some things. "Been a while since you have been anywhere it seems you felt it was okay to be yourself but nothing compares to home, never will but a second place to call home, I mean for what it is, not too bad right?" Maybe it was her doing too much, thinking too much but there was always more than what it seemed to be and that was a thought a memory that she wanted to uncover. "I know how much it sucks when it's right in the middle of a memory." Ribbon Harmony
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Apr 18, 2021 17:48:23 GMT
Post by Deleted on Apr 18, 2021 17:48:23 GMT
The truth was it seemed as much as some thought that she might be bothered by it, she was not. She could even easily admit that parts of her past were not easy but that was life and she liked going on here and there. Her family, well as much as you could call them a family was okay and to her that was good. She knew she was a bit off kilter a lot of times but even then she was becoming okay at and with that. "Look you're only here because at the end of the day Micah wants in your memories. I get it because it's difficult to see but he taps along the edges just to see how you can handle that and it has to be a bit annoying but your memories the deepness that runs in them are all he wants he just has no true idea how to bring them out without harming you. Such a damn catch twenty two when feelings get involved." She honestly thought also that this could go either way. "It's a bit of a magnetic pull where one can never know how things will play out but I honestly feel like you sit on a lot too. You experience small bits here and there but you have yet at least the way i see it to fully experience a break through but when you do, please remember this moment where I warned you." Cae Mire
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Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2021 0:56:39 GMT
She looked at her and she started to speak but she supposed that they both knew some sort of the truth. "Or yours" she knew that it was not the best come back but she shrugged. "I don't have what he wants but I will admit that I might be a small piece of it but come on are we really going to stand here and go back and forth like two school girls?" She sighed at the thought. "The thing is I feel like you don't want him to have them just as I would not if I were you. It does not take but one look at Micah to see the things that lay underneath. "It's only a matter of time or maybe a matter of memories before we lose the version of him that we know now and he turns out far worse than your mother and i mean that with no disrespect just being honest." It was not a difficult thing it was only something that needed to be discussed. "One thing that i have learned about being around siblings is they almost always want different things and you wanted to be here and he did not which would indicate to m that you are fine with things and he is not. You are the good and well, he is the bad." Ribbon Harmony
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May 12, 2021 22:16:30 GMT
Post by Deleted on May 12, 2021 22:16:30 GMT
This was where it always got a little difficult for her and she had no idea if it was because of her memories or her constant fight to feel like she simply wanted to wipe it clean and pretend as if it had not happened. "I am not as big of a factor as my family would like for us to pretend. I mean I am a factor and I know my part but the real threat is the fact that Micah likes a show. It's like he somehow thinks that his life is something that people have to pay admission too and yet somehow, well you see it where are the fireworks so to say." She gently shook her head and still went on. "It's like dominoes at least to me. In the end everything will fall or collide together and we will survive and the past will be as it should be now, though I simply just want my copper wires which is why you had to come with me. I hope that you are comfortable enough to grab a hammer and go from there." She always was ready for business at least since her father died. It taught her a lot but mainly that time waited for no one and well she certainly knew that Cae was nothing special. Cae Mire
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Jul 10, 2021 15:11:22 GMT
Post by Deleted on Jul 10, 2021 15:11:22 GMT
She was always perhaps too quiet but it did allow her to make memories that she thought might otherwise be gone and disrupted and she did not like the thoughts of that as she pushed her hair back. "You know me Ribbon always about knocking down the walls and getting to the core of the memories as such I imagine that you are." She was not being smart to her but she knew perhaps all too well what it meant to play around in this area with Ribbon. As much as the girl tried to deny it she was her mother and father in shades of herself and that was what Cae found the most interesting. "Dominoes is probably the best metaphor. I actually like that and i compare my memories to fluxes I guess is the best way to word it. They flow in and out depending on who I am around and as you know events that take the time to surround me. Scare me half the time but I still hold on to them because they make me who I am as do yours" she said as she took a second to pat her on the back. "You just carry yours in a different form and that is a fault of neither one of ours." Ribbon Harmony
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