swing! - [Sam]

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"Wow." She could see it now and she smiled. "That's great news. I mean she never has spoken about it but I would not jump to anger. It would probably depend on what she was told but now the two of you have the chance to fix it and that is better than anything right now." She was not a sucker for family relationships as a whole but she was a sucker for a good mother daughter moment. "You seem sad when you talk about it but I am sure that you would not have left without a good reason."

She did not know if she would get the whole story right away so she did not want to budge. "One thing Gigi told me was that things always happen for a reason. Granted a lot of those reasons we will not know right away but if we chose to dwell on them then we become miserable and Samantha you do not yet seem like the type that deserves to be miserable." She wanted to hug her which she found odd. "Any other big secrets just yet?" She was debating telling Mila. "It would be tacky to tell her over a text. Okay so that's two things for you to do, look at that you are already fitting in."

@sam

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"Thanks you are making me feel better alright but the truth is at the end of the day there is no excuse when it comes to leaving your children. I accept the fact that what I did was beyond shitty and if she never wants to speak to me again that is what I deserve." She had chose business and a comfortable life for herself over any aspect of being a parent and that w as wrong. "I guess it made it easier considering that I knew Gigi would take care of her. At first the communication was there and then it was not. I don't even know what happened to Tristan."

She was not sad for that though because she felt like she had loved Gigi even better than he ever could. "None the less I'm ready to go to Oregon when you are. I feel like once I get there I will be able to tie up a lot of loose ends and that makes me feel great." She was grateful for Vivian at the moment and honestly she would have it no other way. "I have always fit in" she said as she laughed. "It was your mother who made me want more than that though but that time has passed."

Vivian Carter

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"Do you really think it has? I mean I know nothing about long term affection is how I will refer to it but I do know that my mother used to always say that all the absence of someone did was make the heart fonder and I know that is a quote that everybody in the world knows but what they don't know is how the quote effects different people. Maybe she is over you but maybe she is not and if you were completely over her then I do not think that you would be having this conversation with me. I mean yes I need and appreciate your help but I searched you out because the two of you did share a bond and from what I can tell about after you were gone she was loyal to my step father but never really dated. Maybe she did not want me to think ill of her but i never would have."

She had her numbers and all her different math techniques to keep her occupied so her mother having some sort of life outside of her work would be something that she thought she would have encouraged but her mother never showed that side of her to Vivian. "I am not saying that she was lonely because I do believe that her work is also a type of love and affection for her but it's not physical. You can not talk to it if it is giving you a bad day and it tell you that everything is alright and if even just for a slight second you actually believe that so I don't know maybe it has but also maybe it has not. I would say that the odds are 50/50."

@sam

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"I won't know until I see her and not just see her but talk to her. We always had Tristan as a barrier but not this time so while some things might remain the same I expect that there are others that will be different thus the whole conversation might take a more different turn than I am ready to deal with." She did not know if the chance was a good one to take but she did know she wanted to be there.

"I used to see things done to people but I never imagined that karma would come in the form of taking the one thing away from her that she often thought was untouchable though that is more around the very definition of karma itself now that I think about it." She let herself up from her desk. "Anything else or are we good to go?" She did wonder what all had happened to get to this point but not enough to discuss it so as far as she was concerned it could stay in the past. "I could easily see Gigi loving her work more than she could ever love a person so I'd say you got that one hundred percent right."

Vivian Carter

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"Can I be honest with you?" She liked talking to her and as long as they got along she did not know why she could not do so but she also thought that it was polite to ask. "I wish I wasn't one hundred percent right when it comes to this. I have never wondered why I got the power to be so good and precise with numbers but this is one time that while I am not questioning it I wish it was not so." She would never waver on this but this was her mom. "I wish that this was not happening because I have no idea how she is going to react but more than that how it is going to change her."

She knew that she was well into adulthood too but that made it no easier. She would not cry because she was far beyond that but it did not mean that an emotional toll was not going to be taken on her. "It's also another reason why I have been just mainly keeping my concentration on baseball but I feel so terrible about that too. It does not seem right to put my mind somewhere else when I just know that the shoe is about to drop." She smiled trying to hide the fact that it could have been anyone else and she did not feel like she would have been as affected. "If this gets terrible, I won't have a single parent alive and this is one time that I would rather not go zero for two."

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Losing a parent was something that Sam could not understand but she still listened. "Zero for two does suck no matter the situation but I imagine in this one it would be extremely so and more than that sad." She did not know the last time that she had felt sadness either but she felt as if she did not want Vivian to feel it. "Well as I say in business the first step is to not let us get ahead of ourselves especially since it seems like it might get denied. Facts need to be presented in order to appeal to Gigi as we know her as a whole."

She smiled and shook her head. "A lot of times when people start interacting with one another they forget that people are more than just one or two things but it's not the fault of anyone in particular. It's hard to imagine that a person could be so much and not just a few details." She did her best to make sure that her voice was calm. "I am also very guilty of that myself so it's not like it's done on purpose much like everything else it just happens." She was guilty of a lot but Sam did not want to dwell. "We will pull her though so no thinking that you are going zero for two in anything."

Vivian Carter

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"It's always more of a confidence builder when you hear the words from someone else's mouth honestly." She did not know why it was like that but it truly was and right now it was making her feel good so she was happy for that. "I was thinking that if it was okay that we would get in at night and give you time to rest since I don't know mentally how this will do for you." Even though she would not say it out loud, the protection of Sam was now her priority.

"Or we can do it however you think would fit you best. I am not going to really be too hard on it because you and my mom have a history that I don't yet understand and because of that I am following and leading at the same time." Plus Sam had helped her manage her money and come into a good bit of it and she felt as if she owed her. "You ever been to a place that you are not sure would be right for you but once you got there you couldn't imagine yourself anywhere else? That is kind of how Astaria is." She liked it a lot and hoped that Sam would too.

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"Well new places have always excited me and it will be nice to see things that I have not before. I actually am the boring type of person who enjoys a good tour or learning about history." She had questions about things that she was sure that Vivian did not know anything about so she stayed quiet for the moment. If she wanted the information she knew that she needed to get it from Gigi. "Well I won't keep up too much of your time I just need to grab a few things and as far as I am concerned we can be on our way."

She finally pulled herself away from her desk and stood up. Her face and legs were always her best features but no one would know that looking at her. She stayed covered for the most part because it was how she felt the most comfortable. "I'm going to pack at least three over night bags because I feel like that is how many I will need. Will you come help me please that way it can move along faster?" She always thought you could tell things about someone from the way that they packed.

Vivian Carter

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"Sure." She never packed because she just always bought new things wherever she went but she was not going to hold it against someone who wanted to pack. She signaled for Sam to lead the way as she followed politely. "You know something that always kind of got to me was the fact that when I reached out to you, you never once gave me a hard time about it. I mean your only request was that we keep it from my mother which was something that I always wanted to do anyway."

She had never thanked her for that but she needed to. "Thanks for that because the truth was if I had not been able to talk to you about this then no telling who I would have turned to and I did not want to chance that." She smiled. "Alright you are going to have to show me how to pack or at least show me what you want packed and I will get it into one of your suitcases the best way that I can." Space and numbers and luggage. She had no idea if her numercial precision would help her to pack but she was certainly looking forward to it. "Let's start with how many days and do you want to rotate your outfits or do you want a whole new outfit per day that you are in town?"

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"I think that 3 days if I rotate them enough should be enough because to be honest with you I don't want to pack too much. I could always just buy more clothes if I stick around which do not get me wrong. I want to stick around but it's not like I will if Gigi will not want anything to do with me but Vivian do not take that as a slight to you. As we discussed things can be difficult but it's nothing that you do not already know."

She turned to find her luggage. "You ever had to leave somewhere that you really liked and never look back? That is kind of how it was when I left Gigi. I knew that she had Tristan but her and I were more than that. I considered us friends at one point so it hurt me which made the communication extremely hard and now it's been years and well I look like this." Maybe she was a little nervous. "Hard for a smart person to not read straight through you if that makes sense. Usually it would not be such a big deal but I don't know if I can lie like I used to anymore."

Vivian Carter