all hat and no cattle (tag)

[Decipher Nottingham]

"Fine, I love you Graysen," she said nonchalantly. "I mean as much as I could love anyone else I love you but my affection for you is off the charts and that is what matters the most." Ugh men always needing validation, it made zero sense to her but she knew that she was not supposed to understand everything. "I mean I have a huge surprise coming up for you as soon as I can gather it all together so there."

Once she was comfortable she spoke again. "Different like I could love you with my fingers or my toes but I choose to love you like I love my toys. Care for deeply and kill someone over." She would always say it with conviction because she meant it and she felt like she needed him to understand that. "Graysen I am going to always protect you, and I feel you me. It will never be any better than that," she said as she moved closer to him with her chair. He always smelled good but she had gotten used to it. She shook her head. "Yes baseball soon I expected it to be next once we are done here in Texas. I am slowly learning give and take just you know in my own time and trying to be aware of your time too."

It was hard but she was going to do it, she could do it. She slightly nodded at his suggestion. "Okay," she said. "What did you decide on?" she said as she put her eyes back on the menu. Fuck why had she got so close, she moved her chair a little bit. "You know what you don't have to tell me we can both be surprised."

Graysen Maddox

[Graysen Maddox]

He shook his head for the moment he suppose he would take it. He knew that certain things in life could not be rushed and never should be. "I feel the same." He had not understood it at first but he was slowly coming around to understand it and it was good or it made him feel good. "A surprise?" So far he had done well not to get pulled into her whole little gift thing when it came of giving them to others but he felt it would not be long before he got into it. "That makes me a little excited," he said but still remaining calm. He also hoped it would be baseball related but if not he would drag her around to that eventually.

He grimaced a bit every time that she mentioned killing someone when it came to how she chose to categorize how she cared for him. "That will not be needed," he said. "Besides aren't you to pretty for jail colors?" He laughed at the thought but he felt she was serious if she wanted to harm someone he felt like she would. "Anytime that you are ready just pitch it so to say and I will be there." It was not a moment of being cocky just pure and sheer honesty.

He watched her movements and it was strange but he understood at the same time. "Fine," he said as the waiter came over to take their order. "No eating off my plate though since you will have your own food."

Decipher Nottingham

[Decipher Nottingham]

In her own way she guessed if someone ever asked her if she liked traveling alone or traveling with a companion better she would pick traveling with a companion though that thought alone was still something she was trying to work out in her own head. She enjoyed things but she also knew that they both had things that at times made them annoyed at one another but food as always was a common comfort. "I think you will enjoy it immensely and that does put a smile on my face." For instance her centering the whole world on her as she always felt like it should be.

"I am too pretty for them but sometimes if you go so far out to do the crime you have to rock the colors for the time," she said as she shook her head. "I would constantly be on the run because only a fool would allow themselves to get caught after such a horrendous act." She nodded. "Three days from today I will be ready I think or it will be ready enough at least." She did not want to make him wait any longer.

"I want the fontina and sage grilled cheese and he will have, well I don't know. Men always need to order their own food to feel proper and secure it seems," she said as she smiled. It was fun to go back and forth with him because he never seemed to get upset which she truly adored.

Graysen Maddox

[Graysen Maddox]

He nodded his head. "The fact that even for a second you put something for me above something for you is amazing," he said as he looked at her and shook his head. "I mean it just is different and this is a nice look on you." He always tried to keep his compliments straight forward and not make them sound too physical because he did respect her underneath all of his feelings. They were simple and yet complicated but this was good the talking and eating.

"You are too pretty for them but the fact that you would do it and be ugly in your own eyes means a good bit to me too. See in your own way you do have the ability to show people you are able to have more to you it's just when you feel like it and not on their time." It would bother him otherwise but he had a little bit of a time advantage of learning to deal with and well go with the highs and lows.

"I'll take the same," he said as he watched the person walk away. He turned to Decipher and he moved his chair closer to her this time. "I like when we sit like this" he said simply. "The longer that you can stay closer to me the more I feel like you might truly trust me," he added as he grabbed her hands and looked over them. "Your ambidexterity, well let's just say I would have given anything to have that at my advantage during my career but I still did pretty well." He had not encountered many who had these abilities so he was still learning and her being his first long term encounter only raised more questions. He finally let her hands go and moved away. "Sorry you're just soft and it's distracting," he said as their food arrived. He nodded and began to eat his food giving her time to process.

Decipher Nottingham

[Decipher Nottingham]

"It's easier to do with you for some reason. I mean when I think about it and how you might react it just happens naturally and it is honestly a break from toys. I love what I can do, how I see toys but the amount of time I have to spend to know how to work them with no sounds, no communication it does take a toll after a while so when I met you and I could do that and come out days later and talk about it even during the times that you did not really listen just nodded and thought I did not notice it made my affection rise and in turn that makes doing things for you because I want to easier and smoother and well you reap the benefits cause you get more time with me." She laughed because she was still cocky but as much as she could understood it he was her person which was so much more tremendous than being one of her toys.

She did feel things for them attachments because they belonged to her at the end of the day but also at the end of the day they got put in her bag but Graysen did not. She could tell you easily what he smelled like, what his emotions were with just the way that he talked and things that she did not realize meant that she truly did love him because she had never wanted to know what that was like but things change and events change us and most importantly time. She rolled her eyes. "Geez Graysen I don't care about what others think just you. I try to show you that but I am not sure I am getting the message across well enough," she said as her attention went to him when he came closer to her.

She normally would have smacked his hands away but he started talking about her while holding them and so she had to listen for she was her favorite subject. She stared at him while he discussed her and raised her eyebrow because she thought he was honestly going to say something else and she quickly reprimanded herself in her head. She felt true sadness when he let her hands go but distracted herself with the arrival of food as she looked it over. "I use a lot of moisturizer and night oils while I sleep so it helps to soften the skin" she said as she took a bite of her sandwich.

She chewed quietly trying to figure out what this was as she finally turned to him and grabbed his hands. "My turn," she said as she could feel the rougher patches of skin on his hands and that she understood why. People who put in the work did not have as smooth skin as hers because they worked harder for everything that they had so rougher hands were a sign of hard work in a career field of choice which for him had been baseball. She placed her left hand into his and drew an invisible D and G into it, making sure to loop the bottom of the D and the top of the G ever so slightly together, just a touch in a way. "If you think that stands for Dolce and Gabbana then I have completely misunderstood everything that has happened at this table since we sat down."

Graysen Maddox

[Graysen Maddox]

He did like seeing the things that no one else got to see they were less shallow at times and though it was far and few between it was still nice. He had no idea if it would turn into something and he had never been one to look too far into the future anyway cause it changed all the time. Her messages were fine and he was still trying to help her learn to be nice to other people but he knew in time. We did not learn to appreciate what others could do for us over night but he was surprised when she took his hands.

It kept him from eating but he still let it go on but he did laugh when she spoke about the d and g. He had never thought that how their names began would mean anything but somehow it had all worked out. "I think that you understood it enough" he said as he slid his plate over to hers and spoke again. "I was not all that hungry I just wanted to always share my food with you especially since I'm going to have to hit you with a fast ball when we do get on the field." As much as he wanted to hold back and not smack her with a ball she would not learn if he went easy on her.

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