I'm bringing answers (1/2)

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He wanted to talk about it.

He wanted to speak about it because...he had not and he was tired of it just being flashbacks and echoes and going on and he knew that his family knew that he had not processed it because what was grief? Stupid and it held you back so much and Micah did not want that so he went on with his life but still it was difficult here and there because while he was good, it did not mean that he did not need to talk about it to get it out.

"So, seems you've finally caught me huh?" he said as he turned to face Faye. "I mean I word it like that cause you know how I feel about the whole word thing but what I mean is that you finally came to talk to me and I think it's a bit past due right?"

"Well," she said as she looked at him. "I have never been one to interrupt anyone when their mind is made up because I know how headstrong that can make a person and honestly you know I worry about you the most but then I realized that the best part of you is doing, being true to yourself and i was no longer worried about you but the others."

She knew her kids and that was something that even if she did not like she had decided to just allow herself to accept. "Micah I need you to listen to me though and I know that you understand it but if you open this up, if you start talking about things you're going to have to tread carefully. People won't like what you have to say." She knew that all too well. "Maybe you should try just tip toeing around it a bit before fully opening and yelling it out."

Micah sighed. "I don't want to murmur. I want to speak and be heard and..I'm not scared because I was taught to always stand on my truth and that is exactly what this is. It is me standing on my truth, me standing on everything that I know and everything that I know you know and everything that Mallory went and forgot about herself when she did what she did. Besides I know that she's still hurting just like me and we have all been quiet long enough don't you think?"

Faye ran her hands through her hair because she understood but she also knew better now but when she was his age nothing would have stopped her. "Well do you want an answer with me as your mother or me as just a person because those are two different answers and emotions which to be honest right now I feel like yours are kind of teetering and that is never good."

"I'm not teetering, this is me. I don't do anger, I don't do sadness I just do me and right now me would like to talk. Isn't that what you taught me? Micah stand up for yourself, speak your mind, never let yourself be defined by anything?" He was indeed teetering as he turned and looked at her. Faye sighed and she finally spoke.

"No Micah, I taught you to be fair and to just let shit rest but you can't. No, no as a matter of fact it's not that you can not it's more like you do not want too." She could feel herself getting upset. "If you do this I know you know that you won't be the same." She liked him how he was now because he was awkward and adorable and to be honest hidden in the shadows where she knew that his ass needed to stay. "Micah don't do this, as your mother I just think that this is a bad idea."

"No worse than you going bat shit back in the day and leaving Ribbon and I to fend for ourselves right?" He shook his head. "Mom I love you but you don't exactly have a leg to stand on," he said as he leaned over and gave her a kiss. "Don't worry, I was actually created for this. See you soon," he said as he picked up his table and made his way out the door.

Micah knew that he did not follow through on a lot of things but he was going to follow through on this. He drove out about sixty miles and then stepped out and pulled out his table. It was going to be hard to get this damn thing sanded and done in time but he was going to. It was hot here too and he hated that as he came out of his shirt and the small bits of sun beamed down across his back. His tattoo was still there somehow shining a little extra depending on the angle that the sun came down on it from. He simply looked up and spoke.

"Sorry, but even as you know every thing happens right on time and as it should." Tables, sun, sand, time. "You bring the rest of the materials?" Shit, this was going to be hard but worth it. "Tables always turn, the sun always rises, the sands of time always flow right?" It was time for answers but first he had to build because this table was indeed going to make everything turn.

Vivian Carter

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"I just want to say that you have a whole leap of faith in me than I do," she said as she sat down beside him. She was not nervous but she was excited and a little scared because it was a lot of numbers. "I brought the shovel, the glass, and the blow torch." To her it had been a strange list but still she brought them because she understood one thing about this. "I know that the finished product is going to be worth this leap that you are doing." It was still a bit strange for her because he had asked her to sit on this exactly a year ago and she thought that he had forgotten but here they were a year later and he had reminded her and she had let out a laugh but she was ready now though she was still not sure that it was going to go smooth at all. "I am almost flattered that you remembered."

Them working together was dangerous and she supposed that was what anyone with sense knew which was why they were doing it in secret and not really letting it out quite yet. "I need some help gathering so come on and then we can come back to your precious table." There was 1/16th of an ounce of giddy in her voice so she hoped that he would not be able to tell the difference. She took a minute to look at the table. "So when you are finished with this and I am only asking this because I want to make sure that I understand this correctly. It will cause a cascade of? How did you word it?" She gave a small peek over at his back and her eyes went a little narrow as she made her way around and almost went to go touch it when she stopped. "Ooh, Micah."

"NUMERICAL CONSTRUCTS!," she said as she went back to him and her smile was from corner to corner of her mouth. "Yes. Yes let's do this." He was going to build the table but she, much like her mother before her was going to construct it on a mathematical variable and then as it should have been when her mother was working with others, they were going to present it. "I still need help getting the material though and pardon my excitement it's rare."

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He listened to her but he could feel the flicker of his ears as Vivian spoke because her tone was different but it was not bad things like that happened and more often than not they were good still he kept his concentration to a hard maximum visioned enclosed area and then he finally spoke. "Yeah I'll help you get it," he said for he did not want her to think that she had been ignored and then she started screaming and he shook his head. He had thought that she would be the calm one but much like a lot of other things in his life he was wrong.

"Yes but please keep your voice down," he said as he pushed his hair back and went quiet for a minute. "It's going to provide a lot of answers and open up a whole new world of questions at the same time as that is what answers do but only if you are quiet and only if you can keep it at a minimum squealing. I got about three perhaps four days until Trove is back fully so I need to make the most of this time." He looked up. "Back behind you I am assuming for the materials?"

Vivian Carter

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"I am good with keeping my voice down," she said. It was not that she wanted to draw attention to herself anyway since she found it harder to slip anything in if eyes were all on you and sadly the one thing she never learned to do as a child was to truly take in what it meant to be careful but as she became an adult it was something that she did become better at. It was the numbers or so she told herself to be more specific that it was because of the numbers. Looking at a piece of paper and seeing numbers differently brought a lot of headaches so stress from anything else simply had to be acute.

She nodded. "Yeah," she said as she turned around and began to walk. "I think that what you are doing is good and maybe even great," she said. "I do not compliment people much so please do not take it lightly and at the same time do not let it go to your head. The second that starts to happen with anyone I have found through out my life that everything else tends to fall apart." She finally pointed. "Everything you need and a few things that you did not request you know just in case,"

Micah Nottingham

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He supposed the thing that made him more strange than anyone else in his family was the fact that he had such a comfort in his own space that most of the time he started a lot and would forget to push through but this while slow was something that he was going to get through because he wanted and it would in the end be spectacular but right now it was just a small construct of a fizzle and at least Vivian had agreed to keep her tone down which made him happy and he smiled.

"As you know the word construct is pretty self explanatory which is why I need your voice down. As I think about it and go from point A to point B, I do not want to mess up and for that I need focus and peace but I need your advice too." He had never been so dumb as to think that he could do it all himself but to ask he felt he was odd at asking for things so he simply played and pushed and people went along or came with him and it was an understanding between the two of them and he did like that. "Thank you for getting the things I need and even those I am sure that I forgot to ask for."

Vivian Carter

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Vivian took a second to listen and nod. She could already imagine all the numbers that were going to zoom and thump through her head but she was okay with that because she liked to be pushed to her limit and have it force herself to come out of her own comfort zone and scare her but be better for her in the long run. She shrugged and then spoke a second. "I always come to anything over prepared so that as time goes on and I dip in and out I still always have all my base materials at least," she said. "Mom raised me that way and I mean she's whacky as hell now but I am good and plus you know I tend to stay away from all the science things but I hear that you love it."

She knew more than she had said but it was because the more that she thought about it ; it was not really her place. "Alright so now that you have everything you need I expect that we can skip all of the usual line of bull and get straight to the good part?" She was a little impatient and she would wait if she needed but she preferred not too.

Micah Nottingham

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It had taken a while for Micah to learn patience. His first memory of it he figured was the first time he had actually been told no by his parents that he could not do something because it was not deemed safe. As a child this was not something that he understood and as he grew up it was still something that bothered him but he slowly learned that patience was important and to him in a strange way also a way to show how mature you were. "I always preferred spending more time with your mom. At your mom's house it was different and I felt like I was a creature that was more free while at my house I felt as if I were a creature where my parents felt like at any minute the bottom would fall out but now I realize it was just a way of protecting me."

He fixed everything and ran his hands across the table. It was smooth and it was, the edges were smooth and these were things that allowed him to know that timing was his own to pick. "It's all, each part is good some of it just takes time to be a little more clear than others but yes, did you bring your books?"

Vivian Carter