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Post by Deleted on Apr 3, 2021 14:17:08 GMT
"I do but it does not mean that it is something that is easy for me to admit and even if it is easy hearing the words, saying the words are two different trains of thoughts and that makes my brain hurt. Look I know that you realize that neither one of us is as yong as we used to be and for that I do not want to beat around the bush and pretend so and please do not confuse me with the type of person who likes being here it's just they can't keep me. I am just a visitor here and you of all people should know that I would never shack up in a residence such as this one."
The state was a little less enthusiastic as she was used to seeing but she supposed that right now it would do in a pinch and that was okay. "If I am allowed to be at home where we both know that I can relax then I know that I will be okay. Half the battle of getting better is mainly because no one truly wants to be where they are or made to feel like they are dying when they are not." She had no real worries about what she was doing here because she was aware of that but her worries were why. "I mean whatever you have to do, do it so I can get out."
@sam
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Apr 23, 2021 17:05:39 GMT
Post by Deleted on Apr 23, 2021 17:05:39 GMT
It was still such a headache but as much as she did not want to she actually understood but she was not going to fall fool to letting this be something that got to her. "Look Gigi I have been through so much that I get what it is like just trying to find something anything honestly in the long run to make you feel like you are not losing your mind but this is not the way." She still had her reservations but she had never been the one with intelligence beyond a basic concept so she also was not a person who could fully get what the side effects of this was and she did not want to make her feel too bad.
"As far as I know everything with you checked out okay so it should not be too long but if you do not want someone following you or trying to send you to someone else for therapy then you need to learn how to play your role and get over your anger or at the least sit on it enough that no one is going to think that you can not handle yourself." It was not easy but it could be done. "You aren't dying and yes I even agree that hospitals often give that feel but you are very much alive and very much aware and now that I am clued in so am I so stop fighting and just work together. You weren't the only one burned by the past you know?"
@gigi
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Apr 23, 2021 17:11:10 GMT
Post by Deleted on Apr 23, 2021 17:11:10 GMT
It was sad honestly how often she forgot how at times Sam seemed to be able to make perfect sense and this was one of those times and she needed to hear it as she sighed. "Tomorrow Sam I want out by tomorrow or I am going to raise cane and it will not be in the good way." Patience she had never had it and now she had the little that she had even less which she knew was bad but it was the truth and she just sighed. "Should we discuss the elephant in the room?"
It was a man naturally because sadly it was always a man between them though as she thought about that she laughed even though the circumstances were anything but funny. Sad, desperate perhaps even lurking for approval. It was hard to tell at times but right now she simply wanted to talk about anything that put her mind in a different place than on her husband. "Can I be honest and say that I am glad that he is dead or does that make me bad person?" She loved that part about her how no matter what she loved being draped in the costume of the bad one. "I tried to feel something when it happened but I felt nothing. Do you know how heartleass I had to be to the situation, how numb I have had to become to feel nothing." She shook her head.
@sam
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