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Post by Mila Richards on Feb 8, 2022 12:39:34 GMT
"Emotions are like everything else. You have your base but at the point of it all it is a lot to take in. I will never truly expect anyone to ever know everything that there is to know about emotions because what we know at any one moment is always changing." That was the best way for her to describe it so that she understood it and did not confuse herself or Ribbon. She shook her head. "Well this time we are going to work through all the annoying that way it's not left out there to come back to later because that would be bad." It felt right to work through something instead of working around it and continuing to loop around but never finding a point to make any true progress in the end, no she wanted things to be different so she was going to make sure she pushed Ribbon just enough to get things done in a steady manner but never over work herself or either one of them. "You will get there and as far as laced balance is, it's just a fancy way of saying do not let anyone weigh you down and do not get distracted by the pretty and formal, stick to the point you want to make it and it will come easier than you believe it to be now." "Pieces of puzzles might be an easier way to think about it. Instead of going for an over all do one piece at a time. If you feel that you are more emotionally anxious, handle that particular spool of your emotions first and work your way around to the other two. One piece at a time and the who you are as a complete person will form itself without hardly any work on your part." Ribbon Harmony
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Feb 14, 2022 12:55:45 GMT
Post by Ribbon Harmony on Feb 14, 2022 12:55:45 GMT
Ribbon listened to Mila and she nodded. "Yeah it's a pool of things and one begins to spill over into the other and the next thing you know everyone involved is eating emotions pie and can not decide if they want to cry, if they are too scared to do something, if they are angry and want to bash something to feel better or any other array of feelings. Either way this time I am going to look at mine and let the feelings flow through me and deal with the consequences later as I should. I feel like not just doing things is holding me back which is just another reason that I came here." Geez she hated sounded like a sad sack of shit and it angered her as she felt a flare up in her emotions as she let out a deep and mostly calming breath. "I am also going to mention that I absolutely hate how quick I seem to be able to go from one feeling to another." It seemed to irritate her scales as much as it did her which was why she wanted to make sure she got through it well enough this time. "I have never really felt weighed down but thank you for thinking about me." It made her heart feel good and she looked at Mila. "If I get the choice I would rather start with my envy. I can deal with anxiousness more than envy since I get envy over silly things. It needs to be something I can address but not hang onto," she said as they finished their walk and she sat down now. "Do you envy anything?" Mila Richards
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Feb 23, 2022 15:20:36 GMT
Post by Mila Richards on Feb 23, 2022 15:20:36 GMT
"Sounds like a plan," she said. She felt like she could do the same she just knew that she much preferred to paint her way around her feelings. Over the past few months she had leaned more into her art than before and because of that she felt like she personally understood what she painted more rather than just having to do it because it was something that she liked and that was a good feeling. "A lot of people only wish they could deal with emotions as quickly as it seems you are able to, I think if a person could there would be a lot less depression in the world but either way everyone is how they are and at least we know our faults now." She still also had a lot of work to do on herself but she knew that she was never going to give up on herself and she felt good about that. She listened and followed in the sitting down part glad the walk for the moment was done. "I have never thought about it but probably how smart my mother and father were outside and inside of business. That is one thing I wish I had more of." Ribbon Harmony
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Post by Ribbon Harmony on Mar 3, 2022 13:20:33 GMT
"Well if they had something put in their back that was hard to deal with I doubt that they would want to do anything with their emotions," she said as she thought about it. She knew that she was lucky in a lot of ways having had both parents raise her up until she was a certain age and then having to have her mom take the reigns by herself and then her with her brother after her mom lost it all, at least that was what it felt like and even at a young age she knew that watching a parent dive down into a downward spiral was nothing any kid no matter how old should ever have to witness. She listened as Mila talked about her parents and she nodded. "Sneak too, I mean in the end it seemed when I would visit I could feel like I had to be extra careful. I am sorry for what happened with your father and that your mom dealt with it and that it tore your relationship up but and this is awkward as hell coming from me but it is never too late to fix it if that is what you decide you want to do." She needed to learn to gradually take her own advice but it was very hard to eat our own words. She took a minute to lift her arms up in the air and let out a calming sigh. "So after food, we are taking a detour from this but we need to gather some paint first sound good?" She had unintentionally studied habits and interests that they both had and it was time to put it on a canvas at least a liquid one of sorts. Mila Richards
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Post by Mila Richards on Mar 9, 2022 22:09:24 GMT
"Yeah your mom always liked to test you. I feel like my mom did too just luckily enough not as much of an extreme. Parents do that and then we walk around knowing who we are but being scared of so much more however look at us ; more so look around us Ribbon. We are in a beautiful place and talking and learning in our own way." She had no idea how to describe it but for her it felt like a fulfilment that she had never thought she could or would experience. "Well I was only sneaking around because my parents knew I only wanted you over because I loved you. In my house I was always raised to never deny what was felt and they did not trust me alone with you though I explained I did not think we would ever quite reach that point, that we really were just friends." Two heartbreaks from one person was enough in one lifetime. "I think that they feared I would give up art if you asked me too and they were not wrong at least then but it all worked out for the better in the end." She shrugged. "There are a few things I want to fix in general so if they chance pops up I will take it." She knew at times she could be too easy going but she liked to be that way. "Paint, food and a detour? See I always knew you know what I like but I have to ask what or where are we detouring too?" Ribbon Harmony
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Mar 15, 2022 13:06:10 GMT
Post by Ribbon Harmony on Mar 15, 2022 13:06:10 GMT
"Want to know a secret?" She supposed to anyone who knew her, knew it was not a secret. "I always felt like she was harder on me because she wished I was a boy. I mean it such an archaic idea but I really do believe that." She had wished in her teenage years that she could say her and her mother had a relationship like you read about in books and seen on movies but that was far from the case hell even now if she was being honest. She nodded. "I know I know beauty surrounds us so woo!" She was more about coming out of her shell and learning to appreciate but she still moved at a turtle's pace because it was best for her. She flinched deeply when Mila began to talk about how much she loved her. Ribbon knew she just also realized that she did not deserve it, that she could not handle the pressure or anything else that would have came from her mother should she have said it back but she had, at least when she was younger felt like she felt it. It still pulled at her sometimes now but to have never experienced anything other than a kiss on the forehead, this thing that was love was so foreign and she thought it best to keep it that way. "I knew, I mean deep down I knew which was why I pushed you away so hard. I could even tell when I would see some of your art that it had brought heart break and Mila I..well you know we always hurt the ones we care about the most and I am sorry, I just, you deserve more than me, always have and always will." She quickly went with the chance to change the subject when the chance came. "Yeah you should and yes, I have some surprises for you." The first stop was an arts and crafts shop as she walked in. "Come on in let's get you some painting tools." Mila Richards
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Mar 26, 2022 15:04:48 GMT
Post by Mila Richards on Mar 26, 2022 15:04:48 GMT
"Probably," she said. "I mean it's always kind of like that but I for one am glad that you are not a boy. I mean if you were we would never have been how we were, my dreams would have been hella awkard and such." It was nice to be able to joke about it. She nodded. "Well I have always been surrounded and been able to take in beauty so here I am enjoying this as well." They had did it or so she felt. They were friends and everything that had gotten them here was good and it felt right. "I'm glad that you knew even if nothing ever would have came out of it, just the fact that you knew made it better." Once they had made their way to the store she began to look around. "You should get you something as well you know, just in case a mood hits you one day is all." She felt more than knew that everything people did came in waves, perhaps times so she was open to the idea that just because someone might not love something as much to call it a true hobby, it did not mean the urge to paint could not hit Ribbon one day as well. Ribbon Harmony
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Post by Ribbon Harmony on Apr 9, 2022 15:49:28 GMT
She knew a lot, remembered a lot too about them as they had grown up and the experiences that they had experienced because life was forever going through and doing small things to in the end teach us a lesson even if we did not understand why until later. However she still had some of the proof of how one could never truly escape their past on her more so than the others, but touching on it with her words made it better here and there because in time it all came out spinning out the bottle. Emotions would still be overwhelming but we still had to learn to grow and adapt and she felt like she had done that at least in the moment enough to get by. "I'm glad I knew too, I am sorry that I did not know how to handle it better but we seem so much better now, so much more true to who we are and that is what counts," she said as she now walked in the store and her eyes were gazing here and there at the supplies and she could see how someone could be drawn to art, though she still did not understand Mila's fascination for she swore the girl, no the woman whom Mila was now could get lost in it for hours if she so chose too. "Okay you twisted my arm, but how do I know what are good colors? That is usually Micah's department so I am a bit lost here." Mila Richards
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Apr 15, 2022 11:48:26 GMT
Post by Mila Richards on Apr 15, 2022 11:48:26 GMT
"Well honestly there is no right answer to it. I mean looking at art is all from a point of view which means that every single time it is going to be different for a person even the person who first looked at it. I think a lot of it has to do with mood and things of that nature but it is only a guess and not a fact. So my advice would be for you to just look and pick a color heck pick two that just make you feel good and go from there."
She had never liked to put too much around it because giving something that much thought did make her head hurt and this was a vacation and all about fun. "You know what this vacation needs is some sailing." She still looked because she wanted a few things from here but the whole idea of sticking to one thing while they were here never fit either of them. "I know that you have your reservations about water but it's on a boat on water so slightly different."
She had considered it a fear of Ribbon's for a while but if this time with them being around one another was truly to be different they had to do different things. "We could start in the morning when it is just a little before sunrise and be done just a little after." She took a second and smiled. "It's a plan and no backing out."
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