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Jan 21, 2021 17:42:43 GMT
Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2021 17:42:43 GMT
She supposed whatever was going to happen next needed to fall a pattern in a way or a path in her case but the truth was she had no idea she simply knew that she wanted to keep this calm that she had found and no one especially her wanted that ruined at all. "I am going to play and in a way see what I feel and what I do not. I have not put much thought into it because the last thing that I wanted to feel and exert was more pressure but even in that I did know that I wanted to be honest with myself and you and in doing that well ta-da here we are." She knew that if she wanted to she could perhaps do something that would cause her to go off the weird end in a way but she was going to remain calm as it was something that she wanted to work on and be able to accomplish in the long run. She was trying to think of it in a way that she would understand so she thought of it as one did a spool of ribbon. Once you got it started you only had so much material and what you did with it would indeed matter and this was a life lesson that she also knew she needed to keep close to her heart and in her thoughts. "I think now that I have spun out what I want in my head it will be an easier route for me in a way but I can not rush this and I also am not to have high expectations because that would not be fair to anyone involved, so that is where I am at the moment sound good?" Mila Richards
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Jan 28, 2021 14:34:21 GMT
Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2021 14:34:21 GMT
"I have never been in a spot where putting more pressure on myself has ever turned out good so I can completely understand what you are saying as far as that and I say that if you want to take a different approach then do not ever let anyone change your mind on that. At the end of the day Ribbon it has always been about where and what you want from yourself. Even if both of your parents were alive that would still be the question now because as we are given the chance to get older then we have to realize that we do what we want and as long as we are a kind person to others then who cares about everything else." Though she was not showing it she was happy but the last thing that she wanted to do was to be overexcited and push Ribbon back into the shell that she seemed to always barely come out of before she somehow managed to pull herself back in and she knew that Ribbon decorated that up by calling it growth but her real growth needed to happen and this seemed like a start so that was enough at the moment. "Whatever route you want to take you know I'm ready" she was going to try and be more positive and honest with herself along the way as well. Ribbon Harmony
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Post by Deleted on Feb 3, 2021 14:30:04 GMT
She nodded because the truth was that in all ways that she had envisioned herself she had never seen herself as a squealer though she thought that when she got older perhaps she should have did it but why worry about the future when the day by day process was enough to have to get through. "Well right now my focus is the route that goes to the end of the sand," she said because she did not want to detour from that too. "I'm actually going to say something that I am not sure if it is good or not but I will be glad when it's a little warmer. The weather here is so strange to me and the cold has seemed to have more than a little bit of a snap to it and the last thing I want to do is get pummeled with snow so I guess in my own way that is why I am at the beach as well. When you can not have warmth it is best to create your own in the ways that you can and are able if that makes sense. Anyway come on, anything on your mind while we walk and how do you like the more letting things go and being more giving me, is it working?" She did not think that it was but who was she to judge really. Mila Richards
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2021 3:24:46 GMT
"The fact that you have a true focus is something all on it's own and I know better than anyone that from time to time it might fall from the side or the straight depending but always being able to pull yourself back is a talent that not many people posses and that is also something that we should always knowledge." She knew that even though they were grown they had a lot to do and it might be a while before either of them got to where they felt that they needed to be but at least now it seemed like they had something else to focus on and that was good. "It all makes some sort of sense now in the end. I did not know what to expect at first and while I still do not I do not feel like it's as wild as it once was is what I think it is that I am trying to say." It was cold now but she had a feeling that in six weeks or less it would warm up and maybe spring would bring some much needed warmth all around. "I'm going to take the next few weeks to get back to my own roots of painting so that should turn out good, you should come with me. Split the room and see what kind of growth awaits." Ribbon Harmony
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Feb 14, 2021 15:43:11 GMT
Post by Deleted on Feb 14, 2021 15:43:11 GMT
"I hate when you say get back to your roots but I know what you mean but I think that it would be better if you went with Micah. He's always been a little bit more into the whole painting side of yourself than I have been and I do not want you to not do it because I might show up and flip out because I do not want to be there and in the end that is not fair. I think that Micah wants to check in with you anyway so that should be fun." She did not know how close the two of them had been but she knew that Micah was an awkward little bug and so if he wanted to talk to Mila he must see something in her or when she was around that others did not which was right up her brother's alley in all the right ways and thinking about it made her smile. "Once that is done we can talk again but I do not think that it is something that should be alarming to either one of us, do you want to go? I guess it would be more of a favor to me or for me than anything else." Mila Richards
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Feb 25, 2021 16:59:25 GMT
Post by Deleted on Feb 25, 2021 16:59:25 GMT
"Yeah I will go. I know that a lot of people find your brother a little strange but to me he just knows how to shuffle through his emotions better than the most of us so he does not come across as odd to me he simply knows what he wants and goes about it in his own way." She always felt like she was the only person sticking up for Micah but it was okay. "You do realize that this is just once you running? It is like every time that Micah gets himself settled on actually doing something you are the one that pulls out. I mean I have spoken to your mother and she is even ready but maybe by the time I return you will be ready too. No one can rush you and it will do as all other things do and get together in time so what are you exactly going to be doing while I am away?" Everything had a reasoning and even she knew that. "I feel like you are somehow become a master of keeping secrets and maybe you should work on not doing that and then you can honestly move forward or at the least learn as I always say to work with your scales for once." Ribbon Harmony
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Mar 16, 2021 20:31:30 GMT
Post by Deleted on Mar 16, 2021 20:31:30 GMT
She shook her head because she thought that Mila could understand but she still walked and then spoke. "I am not running but more like I am learning to deal with things and take them in one at a time and that can be difficult when you are not used to it. The scales hurt sometimes when my emotions are a wreck and the ribbon wants to spool itself out but I try not to do such a thing but I have no control over any of this it seems." She did not know how else to explain it but still she wanted Mila to be able to understand everything and she needed to understand it too so that she could explain it better. "The beach is a place or it has rather become a place of silence. I think it's the waves or maybe the freedom of the water which you know I hate but lately everything has been okay and I feel like we are okay here, better here and everything is clear. Just look out at the water and tell me that you are not at your most tranquil here?" It was an experience though not one often written or told about sadly enough. Mila Richards
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